It’s 5:52am and I have yet to go to sleep.
I’ve been pulling back-to-back all-nighters since last Friday night, don’t ask me why. Although I may have a bunch of responsibilities between the farm and the agency, none of them require me to pull all-nighters like I’m practicing for Beychella. In fact, I made a promise to myself this year that I wouldn’t compromise or sacrifice my health, sanity or quality sleep to pull all-nighters and work. Idk what’s been going on with my sleep schedule lately, but I’ve learned when inspiration hits to just go with it.
The astro girlies did inform me about the eclipse energy and apparently Venus left Leo, Mercury was in microbraids and that the post-shadow period was really post-shadowing, but idk. Something has definitely been going on in the Universe because excuse my language, but, I feel like a moody b*tch.
A good thing about owning your own business is that you’re totally allowed to make your own hours and create when you’re called to, whether that means during “regular” business hours or in the dead of night. Just so happens that my creative juices have been flowing through the night so I’ve been up for the past few nights making literal magic (with Grey’s and Scandal re-reruns in the background). Fall is a season for me to fall back from the outside world; it’s hibernation or hermit season. I feel overstimulated, like the music’s too loud and I’m stuck at a party thinking about the leftovers in the fridge at home. But that always happens to me this time of year.
Summer is usually a dreamy season for me; it’s hot and airy, the temperature feels like margaritas and neglecting responsibility. It honestly passed by like a blur this year and I spent the majority of it working outside on the farm and in front of the computer on a call. Every year around this time, I feel called to spring forward and fall back. Fall is really when I really get into my mode: that mode where I just want to duck off, lay low, get my life together and literally stack my coins. It’s an inevitable mood that comes with the changing seasons. The weather gets chillier, the sun sets earlier, home gets cozier, meals get heartier, summer nostalgia begins to fade, and things start to slow down.
Even though I am feeling more reclusive, I’m feeling oddly more motivated than ever. I’m not necessarily in a social mood, but I’m motivated to spring into action behind the scenes of my own life and get my shit together. I’m excited to slow down and put the finishing touches on the end of the year. Things like finishing up client work, doing some home renovations, revisiting my budget, taking professional development courses, and updating my resume and portfolio.
Cozy, moody, homebody, hermit season. My favorite season. Here’s a few of my recommendations if you’re a seasonal saddie baddie like me:
Fall in the country and nature is my favorite. Watching the foliage transition from its once vibrant green hues into golds, browns, reds reminds me how everything changes and how beautiful change can be. Emotionally lately I’ve found myself grieving my old life and who I used to be. It seemed like those were simpler times with simpler problems, but this new me is completely different. This new me is learning how to be an adult, which is something that we’re never really taught. That transition can be both devastating and beautiful, just like fall.
I saw this beautiful quote on Twitter that encapsulates how I feel about nature and the changing seasons:
Tweet courtesy of Ebonee Davis.
This is the time of year where content and messaging is being pushed to remind you how many days are left in the year and on how you need to “finish the year strong,” but I don’t push that kinda rhetoric. Yes, it’s important to me to always do my personal best, but I don’t try to tackle goal-after-goal just to say that the year was a “good year.” Sometimes, you have years where you’re just planting seeds. Other times, you have years where you’re bearing fruit. Neither constitutes good or bad, but both represent movement and change. As an advocate of slow and conscientious living, it’s important to know what season you’re in and to take stock regardless.
Whether you’re planting seeds or bearing fruit, I’m wishing you the best and most restful fall season.
WHAT I’M WORKING ON:
Cult Creative Agency is hosting our first webinar in a minute, Scary Hours, a business horror webinar where I’ll be covering some of my biggest losses, lessons and horror stories in my 7 years of business. You’ll leave with insight, tips and some resourceful goodies to take with you on your entrepreneurial journey. Register here. While you’re at it, our bestselling content marketing e-Book, Content is King, is on sale for $10USD this week. Check it out here.
WHAT I’M LISTENING TO:
Check out my moody, melancholy fall playlist here.
WHAT I’M READING:
Thicker Than Water x Kerry Washington
A Court of Frost and Starlight x Sarah J. Maas